Some people choose what they will be when they grow up. For some, it's chosen for them, by a parent, family business, etc.
I didn't choose to be a woman.
I was born with that choice made for me by nature, by chromesomes, or hormonal imbalance in the womb. The process isn't fully understood. It is what it is, and can't be denied. here is no finishing school, proving ground, or apprenticeship. Real Life Experience - just being - is the only way to learn.
When I first started this journey I had an ideal imagining of the woman I would be, or wanted to be. Well, nature/genetics with the judicious use of hormones has it's own idea of what kind of woman I will become. It's not what I imagined, but on the other hand, I am happier, and more comfortable than I thought ever possible. Liz is NOT a 'new' me. Liz was always there. The artiface, pretense, layers of disguise, deceit, and denial have fallen away.
Like a newly healed wound, or a muscle strain, the me I am now is tender and raw. I am building strength and learning to use my body as I move through - for me - uncharted territory.
The journey is like skydiving. It's only scary until you take the jump, from then on it's amazing and the view from here is transformative!
Posted on transcendentalexperience Sept. 18, 2011
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